Hello It's been awhile again...

The last time I posted on my blog was over 3 months ago.

Personally I've had a lot of stuff going on with my family. During the last six months I have experienced 2 members of my family dying. Nothing prepares you for the grief that entails. The most recent death was that of my Uncle on my Father's side of the family. He transitioned on Oct 11th 2022.

During these last six months I've retreated to the comfort of my home, I'm being a mom to my 8 year old son while starting and stopping my writing and reading as needed. I wanted a break from life and I've been asking myself "What do I want?" over and over again. For now it was just being with my husband, son and dog while I dealt with the raw emotions of trying to navigate this grief. Loosing my beloved mom in April 2022 and now my uncle has given me a new life reality that I live in, one touched by grief. My life is forever changed by these losses and they have become a part of who I am.

After you loose someone you may have to sort through that person's home. I had to sort through my stuff at my parents house in the uk where they had kept things from all of the different stages of my life. It made me realize, I don't want to live with so much material stuff. I can't take it with me when I transition on, So why be bogged down with it in my house?

Which leads me to my new life project of a major overhaul of my house and life. I'm decluttering and donating everything I don't need. I know it's going to take some time to really go through my house room by room as I have a lot of things. I use to host parties all the time before the pandemic. Now I haven't hosted a party in 3 years. I have a lot of party decorations I've collected over the years and now need to get rid of.

I've also been doing a lot of self care going within, listening to audio books that challenge your life's meaning.

This break, let me call it a sabbatical also got me thinking about my life and the friendships I have and have had. Like death everything evolves into something else at some point whether you want it to or not. I recently discovered the book I was never Broken written by Moon Soul Child that sums up the end of friendships beautifully.

It's been hard to let go of things and people in my life that I thought meant something. It's also been liberating getting rid of the old to make room for the new. I am now very aware of who and what I want in my life. This was my wake up call from dealing with the death of a loved one. How do I want to live the remaining years (I hope there are many!!) of my life?

Have you ever questioned that?

I've had a new shift in my creativity this past week. I want to start writing, taking my book photos again, reading for the thrill of it and posting regularly on my blog.

I think I am ready to start living again.

Love always,

Emma